miizs.lolita

yum..yum

2010-01-07T20:07:00.000-08:00

hwe ~ i'm currently eating can dy *hekhek*

anyway.. yesterday i brought BLADE .. *haha*

but i didn't use it . T_T really coward ..

short post leh~~~!!

2010-01-05T01:11:00.000-08:00

duh ! Life was so Boring !

damn ! i hate this kind of life

how i wish i can slash my wrist

or even hang my self ..

the only problem is i am very cowardly

T_T

So stupid girl !

What are the 6 demons name?

2010-01-04T22:06:00.000-08:00

is this is REAL..?

In the film "The Exorcism of Emily Rose"...

1. אני הוא ששוכן בתוך קין. I am the one who dwelt within Cain! (Ani hu sheshokhen betokh Cain.)

2. Ego sum quis habitavit in Nerone. I am one who dwelt within Nero!

3. Mιά φορά κατοίκησε μέσα σε Ιούδας! I dwelt within Judas! (Mia fora katoikese mesa se Ioudas!)

4.Ich war mit Legion. I was with Legion. (Ish var mit Legion.)

5. ܐܢܐ ܒܠܝܐܝܠ. I am Belial. (Ana Belial.)

6. And I am Lucifer, The devil in the flesh.

feelings...

2010-01-03T02:25:00.000-08:00

i don't know how to end this.

why this world is so cruel to me~?

there's no happiness , there's no hope..

i am afraid to face out the real life

everything wasn't good , everything hasn't freedom

so why i still keep on living?

for what ?

this stupid LIFE must need to end

No one know how i suffered everyday

they just know how to judge me

and keep on judging me

they made my life so miserable !

i will be happy if i die

good luck to me!

Worthless,Hopeless,Lifeless

everything has an end

hwe~ Late post T_T

2010-01-02T21:13:00.000-08:00

hwe~~ i'm back with a new smile

haha XD

well , as u can see ? theres so many changed here ryt ? XD

what do u think 'bout my new theme?? kinda messy ryt

hekhek :D

"shortpost"

duh .. so Lazy to post post post post = . =

lolita's collection

2009-12-16T03:26:00.001-08:00

I can hear it slowly walk down the hall,
I can hear it softly call.
'Death is coming!' That's what it says.
'It is the end of your days!'

I can't take it anymore!' That's what I scream.
I grab a rope and tie it to a beam.
I slip the rope around my neck, pull it tight,
Then everything goes black like night.

I am dead, I know that now,
And I also found out how.
It was that damn voice's fault!
If it hadn't have told me death was coming, my life wouldn't have come to a halt.

I watch my body dangling there,
I watch it dangling in the air.
I have to admit, I am amused,
This is a very peculiar view.

I leave my family, I don't think they care,

All they can do is stare.

None of them cry,

None question why.

They never really loved me, I felt so alone.
And now I have been left the world to roam.

lolita's collection

2009-12-16T03:22:00.001-08:00

My dreams fall,
my life is shattered,
into the glass of life.

I got the rope,
i have the chair,
now the only thing i need is hope.

Now I sit down
washing my fears away,
re-thinking of what is gonna happen.

Will they miss me,
will they even care,
will they know that I'm even gone?

I know it now,
what i must do,
what lies in store for me,

They never loved me,
they always picked on me,
so why would they care?

now i wipe my tears away,
slicing my wrist,
wincing in pain.

I stand on a chair,
Re-thinking of it all,
Now glad what i am doing.

Putt the rope around my neck,
wipe my tears of fear away,
kicking the chair away.

Now i hang,
my body lifeless,
knowing i have done the right thing.

They never cared,
the ones who did,
never showed emotion.

Now i am somewhere,
where people actually care,
that's why i have done,
.....Suicide.....

lolita's collection

2009-12-16T03:21:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I keep feeling like this,
My life seems like a mess.
I keep on hurting myself,
doing things bad for my health.
And I have no idea why
I just wanna lay down and die.
This life doesn't seem worth it.
I'm broken, but I can't seem to admit.
Even breathing feels like a waste of time,
There's no worth in this life of mine.
Things seem pathetic and unneeded and dull,
I can't believe I'm thinking about ending it all

LoLita's CollEction

2009-12-16T03:18:00.000-08:00

First of all you need to know that this is not your fault,
It's mine, for I locked my problem inside me like a vault,
Problems that I was never able to tell you,
Problems that I'm sick of dealing with. I'm through.

I'm sick of pretending that everything's alright,
I'm sick of having all these emotional demons to fight.
I can't take my depressing life anymore,
I realize I felt this way too often before.

I now know I'm not needed in this place,
Just another stupid teen, just another ugly face.
I can tell I'm secretly hated by everyone I know,
Though, when I'm around, they don't let their hatred show.

My life has no purpose as I can clearly see,
No one needs me and everyone hates me
I hate this world I live in, I hate how I feel now.
I try so hard to be accepted, but I don't know how.

I hate my reputation.. a fat loser.. a slut
So I'm ending my life, my wrists I will cut.
I want you two to know, that I really do love you,
But I hate my life too much, this is the only thing to do.

Suicide's the perfect escape for my problems to go away,
I don't think anyone will miss me, anyway.
Maybe, somewhere there's someone who loves me
But I couldn't find them soon enough so now I must flee.

Maybe, my life's not that bad, maybe this is all in my head.
But it's too late to tell me that, by the time you find thid I'll be dead.
I'm sorry it has to end this way, I'm sorry if you cry,
But I think this world will be better off, If I die..Goodbye.

PS:I'm sorry I had all this depression to hide,
If you want to see me, you'll find my body outside.

LoLita's CollEction ....

2009-12-16T03:15:00.000-08:00

I see you standing there,
on the edge, breathing heavily,
and I know.
You mean to jump,
and i won't stop you.

You show no shame,
no shame or regret.
This is not the way you're
meant to go.

As you close your eyes to the world
for the very last time,
and step off your high ledge of reality,
you don't see,
my arms lay outstretched to catch you.

You fall from Grace,
setting yourself free only to find that
when your last breath leaves you,
my arms are wrapped around
your limp body,
and i'm smiling,
only smiling at all the blood
and at your shattered soul.

You see the angry tears fall
down my face,
and how it twists in pain as you drift
away.

You call out to me,
but i can no longer hear your words,
nobody ever can again.

You took your life.

As the thoughts race
through my head,
wasn't it you that told me
that only cowards
would resort to Suicide?

by: miss Lolita

2009-12-16T03:11:00.000-08:00

I don't know how I can go on.
I'm living every day as it comes,
but now it's becoming too much.
I cry myself to sleep every night,
thinking about what I've done.
I've tried to stop, it hasn't worked.
I've tried to live, I haven't been able.
I don't know what to do.
What should I do?
I can't talk to anyone,
I'm worthless on this Earth.
If I died now, it wouldn't matter.
If I died now, no one would care.
They say they would, but would they really?
Help doesn't work, I'm getting it.
I don't want to be here anymore, I can't.
What's the point?

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私はどのように行くことができるのか分からない。
などということになる私は毎日、生きている
しかし、今ではあまりにも多くなりつつある。
私は毎晩寝る、泣く
私は何をやったかを考える。
私が停止しようとしたら、その働いていない。
私は生きて、私はできていない試みた。
私はどうすればいいのか分からない。
どうすればいいですか？
私は誰にも話すことはできない
私はこの地球上の価値だ。
もし私がすぐに死に、それは問題はない。
もし私がすぐに死亡した、誰も気になる。
彼らだが、希望は本当に言う？
ヘルプ、私はそれを得ている動作しません。
もうここにはされるために、私はできませんしたくない。
何点ですか？

我爱你，这是永远 ...

2009-12-12T09:47:00.000-08:00

我很厌倦了等待
你不觉得，你看不到
为什么你如此麻木？？
我的..只有你爱我
但你总是忽略它
你不关心我的感受！

哦，天哪
我想结束这种
请帮我

hwe~~

2009-12-12T09:42:00.000-08:00

updated updated

my new header

lalalalalalala

haha

i will miss my old header neh

hihihi (^.^)//

any suggestion..??

PLS. do leave me a TAG neh

xie xie yaahhh!!!

wo okonau dakedeha nanimo (=.=!!)

2009-12-11T07:19:00.000-08:00

nihon wa ima notokoro
kore wa taida na eigo wo hanasu koto

izureniseyo ,
watashi wa genzai , shini tsuite kangae ru toki
jibunjishin to hanguappu surutameno junbi
korewa , watashi ha itami wo kanji rusaremasen
koremade watashi wa jibun no tekubi wo kiru shitai
shikashi , sonoyouni kizutsu keruto i wo okonau kotohadekimasen watashi no jikososhikika niyoru
node , watashi hachoudo watashi no jiko hanguappu surukotowo sentaku

nai watashi wo teishi surukotogadekimasu !

stupid people ~~!!

2009-12-10T17:03:00.000-08:00

to xxiangjing (i dunno if its her real name lah~)

very FUNNY aah!?~

why so angry neh~??

u dun care if wat i want to write here on my blog !! stupid

if u dun wan to see that expression leh~

dun view my blog !!i dun need u leh~?!!

MIND UR OWN~!!

random..

2009-12-10T11:09:00.000-08:00

updated ~ updated lohr

my eyes wants to close nuah

*haha*

mornyt mornyt

coz its already morning here leh~

no more tears??

2009-12-09T20:10:00.000-08:00

i am very tired to live.

sshhh..dont say anything ~!

u don't know the situation OK..

stop asking me

why?? maiintindihan moh ba?!

"OF COURSE NOT"!!

bcoz u are NUMB!!

am i right??

don't ever try to deny it ha!~

i want to Join in a contest leh~!!

2009-12-09T04:31:00.000-08:00

help me to join neh~!!

xie xie yaa~!!

Too Far..

2009-12-09T02:52:00.000-08:00

Sitting by yourself
In an empty room
Surrounded by darkness
You wield a shaking knife shining on the moonlight of a nearby window
You lift your opposite arm showing your wrist
Squeezing your fist shut, causing your vein to budge
You quickly slash at it over and over
Staring
You look as the crimson liquid runs down your forearm
You begin to feel dizzy, then followed by darkness, you pass out
Waking up on the cold ground you see yourself laying in a puddle of blood
You feel nothing
No pain
No relief
No happiness
Your not scared knowing you’ll die soon from the loss of blood
You think back
To all the other times you cut yourself
But this time you went too far
Too deep,
You look up at the dark ceiling wondering if you’ll go to heaven, then looking down, or hell
You glance at you wrist one last time as you drift off into a daze and collapse on the floor
Never waking up again

Dying Inside

2009-12-09T02:04:00.000-08:00

something so hard

goes straight to the soul;
it seems impossible to get over
and my heart is left with a big hole.

I'm trying to be happy, wearing a smile;
but I'm dying inside.
The world seems to be fading,
and I just want to run and hide.

Everywhere I go I see your face,
and realize how much I miss you;
and on the day you died
a piece of me died too.

[for special someone~!]

short post leh~~~!!

2009-12-08T21:21:00.000-08:00

hwe~ good day everyone!

by the way ,.i'm currently listening to

Utsukushi Ki Hibi Yo - Shota Shimizu
while playing my pet ville and Happy Aquarium leh~!

well,..im already done uploading my new pics on my FS acc.
hihi^..^

err..so speechless..! hahas..,

got a new DOMAIN~!!

2009-12-08T12:18:00.000-08:00

yepii~!
new domain !
new domain!

haha..!!

its
http://lolita-princess.tk/
ok.. ;]

go and sleep!

2009-12-08T11:18:00.000-08:00

uwah!! my eyes wants to close nuahh~!
hahaha..!
its already 3:13 here!!

OK bye!
mornyt kaka^..^

angry+tired

2009-12-08T10:20:00.000-08:00

i didn't sleep!!
u see that snowy thingy right???
i made that by my self
err.. its so hard!
my FULL CODES are lost
just only that thing!!

i was so shock when i saw my template
don't have anything codes
i cried bcoz
its really hard to make that codes properly,..i did it for 2 days or more ! i think..
i dunno what should i react,! but then, i forced my self
to do it again ~!

i can't find the other codes~!*****
huhu..

just nothing to do~!!!

2009-12-08T06:37:00.000-08:00

`dUh!! i'm currently playing pet society!..
hekhek,..
but i'm going to stifling now !!
becoz the internet connection is SO SLOW
damn it!!..

i'm STiLL not yet sleepy so
i just POST here on my BLoG..!!

and Oh!! by the way..
yesterday i found another new pics
uhm.., "hard to explained" weh..
ahihihi

i just SHOW the pics i'm talking about neh~!hahas

what can u say ~??

looking good right?!?
hahas..
actually,.when i am looking those pictures like that
i feel comfortable neh~
erm.., i dunno how to explain what exactly i feel!
hahahahas..

well,,. till here neh!!
see yahh!!

short post ~ 短い記事

2009-12-08T05:02:00.000-08:00

`hwe~! neh..
i really enjoying Blogging now,..
even i am just new here ahaha~
well,.honestly i just LOVED to edit
woot~!!
that's all wakaka~!!

quotes..引用符

2009-12-08T03:19:00.000-08:00

"I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name on a piece of paper, but it got thrown away.
I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away.
So, I wrote your name in my heart and that's where it will stay"

"私は砂の中には波があなたの名前を書いたが洗い流さ。私は紙の上のが、あなたの名前を書いたが、捨ててきたので、空が、あなたの名前を書いた風が吹いて吹き飛ばした。だから、私は私の心に自分の名前を書き込み、そのどこに滞在するの"

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"We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else.
We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person.
is what love means...sacrifice."

"我々はそれらを残して、誰か他の人とすることを慰留することはできません。
私たちが大好きな私たちは人を所有するライセンスを与えていないと認めなければならない。
愛...犠牲を意味するものです。"

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"Don't let your past dictate who you are, but let it be part of who you will become."

"過去のあなたが誰であるあなたの左右、聞かせてはいけませんがそれはあなた方になるの一部となることができます。"

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* bakit mo mahal ang isang tao? kahit na magmuka kang tanga hindi ka naman niya mahal tinitiis mo lahat... msakit man pero ok lang dahil... doon tayo masaya

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* di madaling maghintay... di rin biro ang magmahal... minsan kala mo "SYA NA"... minsan kala mo ok na... pero mamamalayan mo na lng... dumaan lng pala sya sa buhay mo para saktan ka!

ランダムポスト || RandOm post

2009-12-07T18:40:00.000-08:00

~haha..kaGigiSing quu lng..
pEo piC agaD inAtuPag
:]]

とてもうれしい

2009-12-05T22:47:00.000-08:00

nov. 7 ,09
hwe~ 長い時間がない参照してください
i miss her so much ne~
あなたに希望をもう一度〜！

miizs.lolita

yum..yum

short post leh~~~!!

What are the 6 demons name?

feelings...

hwe~ Late post T_T

lolita's collection

lolita's collection

lolita's collection

LoLita's CollEction

LoLita's CollEction ....

by: miss Lolita

我爱你，这是永远 ...

hwe~~

wo okonau dakedeha nanimo (=.=!!)

stupid people ~~!!

random..

no more tears??

i want to Join in a contest leh~!!

Too Far..

Dying Inside

short post leh~~~!!

Utsukushi Ki Hibi Yo - Shota Shimizuwhile playing my pet ville and Happy Aquarium leh~!well,..im already done uploading my new pics on my FS acc.hihi^..^err..so speechless..! hahas..,

Utsukushi Ki Hibi Yo - Shota Shimizu

got a new DOMAIN~!!

go and sleep!

angry+tired

just nothing to do~!!!

short post ~ 短い記事

quotes..引用符

ランダムポスト || RandOm post

とてもうれしい

Utsukushi Ki Hibi Yo - Shota Shimizu
while playing my pet ville and Happy Aquarium leh~!

well,..im already done uploading my new pics on my FS acc.
hihi^..^

err..so speechless..! hahas..,