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Ma Li An is the name
a 15 years old girl
living in a Dark World
self-proclaimed Unique person .an idiot.crazylittle human being
I have my own world no one could ever imagine .
I painted my colorful life BLACK && RED
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I can hear it slowly walk down the hall, I can hear it softly call. 'Death is coming!' That's what it says. 'It is the end of your days!'
I can't take it anymore!' That's what I scream. I grab a rope and tie it to a beam. I slip the rope around my neck, pull it tight, Then everything goes black like night.
I am dead, I know that now, And I also found out how. It was that damn voice's fault! If it hadn't have told me death was coming, my life wouldn't have come to a halt.
I watch my body dangling there, I watch it dangling in the air. I have to admit, I am amused, This is a very peculiar view.
I leave my family, I don't think they care,
All they can do is stare.
None of them cry,
None question why.
They never really loved me, I felt so alone. And now I have been left the world to roam.
lolita's collection
My dreams fall, my life is shattered, into the glass of life.
I got the rope, i have the chair, now the only thing i need is hope.
Now I sit down washing my fears away, re-thinking of what is gonna happen.
Will they miss me, will they even care, will they know that I'm even gone?
I know it now, what i must do, what lies in store for me,
They never loved me, they always picked on me, so why would they care?
now i wipe my tears away, slicing my wrist, wincing in pain.
I stand on a chair, Re-thinking of it all, Now glad what i am doing.
Putt the rope around my neck, wipe my tears of fear away, kicking the chair away.
Now i hang, my body lifeless, knowing i have done the right thing.
They never cared, the ones who did, never showed emotion.
Now i am somewhere, where people actually care, that's why i have done, .....Suicide.....
lolita's collection
I don't know why I keep feeling like this, My life seems like a mess. I keep on hurting myself, doing things bad for my health. And I have no idea why I just wanna lay down and die. This life doesn't seem worth it. I'm broken, but I can't seem to admit. Even breathing feels like a waste of time, There's no worth in this life of mine. Things seem pathetic and unneeded and dull, I can't believe I'm thinking about ending it all
LoLita's CollEction
First of all you need to know that this is not your fault, It's mine, for I locked my problem inside me like a vault, Problems that I was never able to tell you, Problems that I'm sick of dealing with. I'm through.
I'm sick of pretending that everything's alright, I'm sick of having all these emotional demons to fight. I can't take my depressing life anymore, I realize I felt this way too often before.
I now know I'm not needed in this place, Just another stupid teen, just another ugly face. I can tell I'm secretly hated by everyone I know, Though, when I'm around, they don't let their hatred show.
My life has no purpose as I can clearly see, No one needs me and everyone hates me I hate this world I live in, I hate how I feel now. I try so hard to be accepted, but I don't know how.
I hate my reputation.. a fat loser.. a slut So I'm ending my life, my wrists I will cut. I want you two to know, that I really do love you, But I hate my life too much, this is the only thing to do.
Suicide's the perfect escape for my problems to go away, I don't think anyone will miss me, anyway. Maybe, somewhere there's someone who loves me But I couldn't find them soon enough so now I must flee.
Maybe, my life's not that bad, maybe this is all in my head. But it's too late to tell me that, by the time you find thid I'll be dead. I'm sorry it has to end this way, I'm sorry if you cry, But I think this world will be better off, If I die..Goodbye.
PS:I'm sorry I had all this depression to hide, If you want to see me, you'll find my body outside.
LoLita's CollEction ....
I see you standing there, on the edge, breathing heavily, and I know. You mean to jump, and i won't stop you.
You show no shame, no shame or regret. This is not the way you're meant to go.
As you close your eyes to the world for the very last time, and step off your high ledge of reality, you don't see, my arms lay outstretched to catch you.
You fall from Grace, setting yourself free only to find that when your last breath leaves you, my arms are wrapped around your limp body, and i'm smiling, only smiling at all the blood and at your shattered soul.
You see the angry tears fall down my face, and how it twists in pain as you drift away.
You call out to me, but i can no longer hear your words, nobody ever can again.
You took your life.
As the thoughts race through my head, wasn't it you that told me that only cowards would resort to Suicide?
by: miss Lolita
I don't know how I can go on. I'm living every day as it comes, but now it's becoming too much. I cry myself to sleep every night, thinking about what I've done. I've tried to stop, it hasn't worked. I've tried to live, I haven't been able. I don't know what to do. What should I do? I can't talk to anyone, I'm worthless on this Earth. If I died now, it wouldn't matter. If I died now, no one would care. They say they would, but would they really? Help doesn't work, I'm getting it. I don't want to be here anymore, I can't. What's the point?
nihon wa ima notokoro kore wa taida na eigo wo hanasu koto
izureniseyo , watashi wa genzai , shini tsuite kangae ru toki jibunjishin to hanguappu surutameno junbi korewa , watashi ha itami wo kanji rusaremasen koremade watashi wa jibun no tekubi wo kiru shitai shikashi , sonoyouni kizutsu keruto i wo okonau kotohadekimasen watashi no jikososhikika niyoru node , watashi hachoudo watashi no jiko hanguappu surukotowo sentaku
nai watashi wo teishi surukotogadekimasu !
stupid people ~~!!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
to xxiangjing (i dunno if its her real name lah~)
very FUNNY aah!?~
why so angry neh~??
u dun care if wat i want to write here on my blog !! stupid
Sitting by yourself In an empty room Surrounded by darkness You wield a shaking knife shining on the moonlight of a nearby window You lift your opposite arm showing your wrist Squeezing your fist shut, causing your vein to budge You quickly slash at it over and over Staring You look as the crimson liquid runs down your forearm You begin to feel dizzy, then followed by darkness, you pass out Waking up on the cold ground you see yourself laying in a puddle of blood You feel nothing No pain No relief No happiness Your not scared knowing you’ll die soon from the loss of blood You think back To all the other times you cut yourself But this time you went too far Too deep, You look up at the dark ceiling wondering if you’ll go to heaven, then looking down, or hell You glance at you wrist one last time as you drift off into a daze and collapse on the floor Never waking up again
i didn't sleep!! u see that snowy thingy right??? i made that by my self err.. its so hard! my FULL CODES are lost just only that thing!!
i was so shock when i saw my template don't have anything codes i cried bcoz its really hard to make that codes properly,..i did it for 2 days or more ! i think.. i dunno what should i react,! but then, i forced my self to do it again ~!
`dUh!! i'm currently playing pet society!.. hekhek,.. but i'm going to stifling now !! becoz the internet connection is SO SLOW damn it!!..
i'm STiLL not yet sleepy so i just POST here on my BLoG..!!
and Oh!! by the way.. yesterday i found another new pics uhm.., "hard to explained" weh.. ahihihi
i just SHOW the pics i'm talking about neh~!hahas
what can u say ~??
looking good right?!? hahas.. actually,.when i am looking those pictures like that i feel comfortable neh~ erm.., i dunno how to explain what exactly i feel! hahahahas..
"I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. I wrote your name on a piece of paper, but it got thrown away. I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. So, I wrote your name in my heart and that's where it will stay"
"We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. is what love means...sacrifice."
* bakit mo mahal ang isang tao? kahit na magmuka kang tanga hindi ka naman niya mahal tinitiis mo lahat... msakit man pero ok lang dahil... doon tayo masaya
******************** * di madaling maghintay... di rin biro ang magmahal... minsan kala mo "SYA NA"... minsan kala mo ok na... pero mamamalayan mo na lng... dumaan lng pala sya sa buhay mo para saktan ka!
nov. 7 ,09 hwe~ 長い時間がない参照してください i miss her so much ne~ あなたに希望をもう一度〜！
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the Lolita girl
hello everyone! intoduce my self first :3 My name is Mary Ann.,A.K.A miss lolita..but many people known me as Ma Li An/玛丽安well its my Chinese name i'm currently 15 years old,.My Special Day is on July 5,1994same as xiao yu's b-day.i was born in Cainta,Rizal,.!i Love pink,brown,white and black bcoz its really nice on my sight~!! hehehe. J-pop,k-pop,c-pop addicted of course music loverhaha .really love the sounds of piano leh,
editing fanatic !~can speak zhong wen and nihongo also write !~kana nishino LOver,.i luv to see suicide neh~ maybe i want to do it also *LOL, A certified daydreamer girl lah~ *ahaha*
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Name: Mary Ann | Ma Li An Nick name: mantao user name: miisz_lolita Age: 15 years old Birth day: July 5,1994 horoscope: Cancer location: Philippines,caloocan
I can hear it slowly walk down the hall, I can hear it softly call. 'Death is coming!' That's what it says. 'It is the end of your days!'
I can't take it anymore!' That's what I scream. I grab a rope and tie it to a beam. I slip the rope around my neck, pull it tight, Then everything goes black like night.
I am dead, I know that now, And I also found out how. It was that damn voice's fault! If it hadn't have told me death was coming, my life wouldn't have come to a halt.
I watch my body dangling there, I watch it dangling in the air. I have to admit, I am amused, This is a very peculiar view.
I leave my family, I don't think they care,
All they can do is stare.
None of them cry,
None question why.
They never really loved me, I felt so alone. And now I have been left the world to roam.
lolita's collection
My dreams fall, my life is shattered, into the glass of life.
I got the rope, i have the chair, now the only thing i need is hope.
Now I sit down washing my fears away, re-thinking of what is gonna happen.
Will they miss me, will they even care, will they know that I'm even gone?
I know it now, what i must do, what lies in store for me,
They never loved me, they always picked on me, so why would they care?
now i wipe my tears away, slicing my wrist, wincing in pain.
I stand on a chair, Re-thinking of it all, Now glad what i am doing.
Putt the rope around my neck, wipe my tears of fear away, kicking the chair away.
Now i hang, my body lifeless, knowing i have done the right thing.
They never cared, the ones who did, never showed emotion.
Now i am somewhere, where people actually care, that's why i have done, .....Suicide.....
lolita's collection
I don't know why I keep feeling like this, My life seems like a mess. I keep on hurting myself, doing things bad for my health. And I have no idea why I just wanna lay down and die. This life doesn't seem worth it. I'm broken, but I can't seem to admit. Even breathing feels like a waste of time, There's no worth in this life of mine. Things seem pathetic and unneeded and dull, I can't believe I'm thinking about ending it all
LoLita's CollEction
First of all you need to know that this is not your fault, It's mine, for I locked my problem inside me like a vault, Problems that I was never able to tell you, Problems that I'm sick of dealing with. I'm through.
I'm sick of pretending that everything's alright, I'm sick of having all these emotional demons to fight. I can't take my depressing life anymore, I realize I felt this way too often before.
I now know I'm not needed in this place, Just another stupid teen, just another ugly face. I can tell I'm secretly hated by everyone I know, Though, when I'm around, they don't let their hatred show.
My life has no purpose as I can clearly see, No one needs me and everyone hates me I hate this world I live in, I hate how I feel now. I try so hard to be accepted, but I don't know how.
I hate my reputation.. a fat loser.. a slut So I'm ending my life, my wrists I will cut. I want you two to know, that I really do love you, But I hate my life too much, this is the only thing to do.
Suicide's the perfect escape for my problems to go away, I don't think anyone will miss me, anyway. Maybe, somewhere there's someone who loves me But I couldn't find them soon enough so now I must flee.
Maybe, my life's not that bad, maybe this is all in my head. But it's too late to tell me that, by the time you find thid I'll be dead. I'm sorry it has to end this way, I'm sorry if you cry, But I think this world will be better off, If I die..Goodbye.
PS:I'm sorry I had all this depression to hide, If you want to see me, you'll find my body outside.
LoLita's CollEction ....
I see you standing there, on the edge, breathing heavily, and I know. You mean to jump, and i won't stop you.
You show no shame, no shame or regret. This is not the way you're meant to go.
As you close your eyes to the world for the very last time, and step off your high ledge of reality, you don't see, my arms lay outstretched to catch you.
You fall from Grace, setting yourself free only to find that when your last breath leaves you, my arms are wrapped around your limp body, and i'm smiling, only smiling at all the blood and at your shattered soul.
You see the angry tears fall down my face, and how it twists in pain as you drift away.
You call out to me, but i can no longer hear your words, nobody ever can again.
You took your life.
As the thoughts race through my head, wasn't it you that told me that only cowards would resort to Suicide?
by: miss Lolita
I don't know how I can go on. I'm living every day as it comes, but now it's becoming too much. I cry myself to sleep every night, thinking about what I've done. I've tried to stop, it hasn't worked. I've tried to live, I haven't been able. I don't know what to do. What should I do? I can't talk to anyone, I'm worthless on this Earth. If I died now, it wouldn't matter. If I died now, no one would care. They say they would, but would they really? Help doesn't work, I'm getting it. I don't want to be here anymore, I can't. What's the point?
nihon wa ima notokoro kore wa taida na eigo wo hanasu koto
izureniseyo , watashi wa genzai , shini tsuite kangae ru toki jibunjishin to hanguappu surutameno junbi korewa , watashi ha itami wo kanji rusaremasen koremade watashi wa jibun no tekubi wo kiru shitai shikashi , sonoyouni kizutsu keruto i wo okonau kotohadekimasen watashi no jikososhikika niyoru node , watashi hachoudo watashi no jiko hanguappu surukotowo sentaku
nai watashi wo teishi surukotogadekimasu !
stupid people ~~!!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
to xxiangjing (i dunno if its her real name lah~)
very FUNNY aah!?~
why so angry neh~??
u dun care if wat i want to write here on my blog !! stupid
Sitting by yourself In an empty room Surrounded by darkness You wield a shaking knife shining on the moonlight of a nearby window You lift your opposite arm showing your wrist Squeezing your fist shut, causing your vein to budge You quickly slash at it over and over Staring You look as the crimson liquid runs down your forearm You begin to feel dizzy, then followed by darkness, you pass out Waking up on the cold ground you see yourself laying in a puddle of blood You feel nothing No pain No relief No happiness Your not scared knowing you’ll die soon from the loss of blood You think back To all the other times you cut yourself But this time you went too far Too deep, You look up at the dark ceiling wondering if you’ll go to heaven, then looking down, or hell You glance at you wrist one last time as you drift off into a daze and collapse on the floor Never waking up again
i didn't sleep!! u see that snowy thingy right??? i made that by my self err.. its so hard! my FULL CODES are lost just only that thing!!
i was so shock when i saw my template don't have anything codes i cried bcoz its really hard to make that codes properly,..i did it for 2 days or more ! i think.. i dunno what should i react,! but then, i forced my self to do it again ~!
`dUh!! i'm currently playing pet society!.. hekhek,.. but i'm going to stifling now !! becoz the internet connection is SO SLOW damn it!!..
i'm STiLL not yet sleepy so i just POST here on my BLoG..!!
and Oh!! by the way.. yesterday i found another new pics uhm.., "hard to explained" weh.. ahihihi
i just SHOW the pics i'm talking about neh~!hahas
what can u say ~??
looking good right?!? hahas.. actually,.when i am looking those pictures like that i feel comfortable neh~ erm.., i dunno how to explain what exactly i feel! hahahahas..
"I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. I wrote your name on a piece of paper, but it got thrown away. I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. So, I wrote your name in my heart and that's where it will stay"
"We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. is what love means...sacrifice."
* bakit mo mahal ang isang tao? kahit na magmuka kang tanga hindi ka naman niya mahal tinitiis mo lahat... msakit man pero ok lang dahil... doon tayo masaya
******************** * di madaling maghintay... di rin biro ang magmahal... minsan kala mo "SYA NA"... minsan kala mo ok na... pero mamamalayan mo na lng... dumaan lng pala sya sa buhay mo para saktan ka!
nov. 7 ,09 hwe~ 長い時間がない参照してください i miss her so much ne~ あなたに希望をもう一度〜！
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well,actually this is my last blog i made ;] i have blogon 163,wretch and Decoo but i'm not active there bcoz lazy to post haha163 is a chinese blog its popular in Guang zhou,while wretch is from Taiwan and Decoo is a Japanese Blog
.i planned to make a blog again here in blogger bcoz im so bored at that time.i made this last Dec.5,09. this is my online diary where i put all things happening to me bcoz i'm lazy to write !! haha
i change my domain into www.lolita-princess.tk coz i found out how to change it leh~!
before my blog Domain is http://pinklolitaprincess.blogspot.com too long right?? haha
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hello everyone! intoduce my self first :3 My name is Mary Ann.,A.K.A miss lolita..but many people known me as Ma Li An/玛丽安
well its my Chinese name i'm currently 15 years old,.My Special Day is on July 5,1994 same as xiao yu's b-day.i was born in Cainta,Rizal,.!i Love pink,brown,white and black bcoz its really nice on my sight~!! hehehe. J-pop,k-pop,c-pop addicted of course music loverhaha .really love the sounds of piano leh,
editing fanatic !~can speak zhong wen and nihongo also write !~kana nishino LOver,.i luv to see suicide neh~ maybe i want to do it also *LOL, A certified daydreamer girl lah~ *ahaha* 
